Heart and Mind Connection: Personal Journey of Heart Chakra Healing

The Internal War

When I started my Spiritual path I wasn’t fully aware of the voices that perpetuated my internal dialogue. However, I was aware of a strong distinct voice; and most often that voice didn’t sound very nice. The voice spoke through remarks, judgements and observations that undermine me and created space for me to halt from growing and experiencing my true Self.

It was not until I started to bring awareness to what the voice was telling me, did I really begin to understand how it was telling me what it was telling me. Whoa, that was a mouthful, allow me to explain.

In my childhood, I was harshly judged by my parents about my body, character, and intelligence. I bought into it’s dialogue thinking it was the truth of who I am. I became overly concerned about how I looked or how my body moved, my speech, and my ability to articulate clearly. So much so that I would still trip over my words or become fearful of speaking up because I felt no one would understand or care to listen. I reinforced the negative self talk that my loving parents set the ground work on.

Yet, I persisted.

When I started a process of self inquiry I realized that this is not how I would want to speak to anyone, so why do I speak to myself this way? I began to gain awareness of how I wanted to be spoken to and how I speak to myself; I consciously decided to change how I choose to speak to myself. If how I was speaking to myself wasn’t empowering, loving and supportive, then it wasn’t the truth of who I am. What helped lead to this path was the practice of meditation. I learned to sit with my thoughts and “people watch” them; remaining fully emotionally detached from the thoughts and allow them to unfold. This was a very difficult process in the beginning.

I can not count how many times I would break down and cry and re-experience the feelings and emotions of those thoughts carried. Yet, I persisted.

I can honestly say that after allowing these thoughts to unfold, I was clearly able to see where and who those thoughts came from. Many of them were not my own authentic thoughts. I learned that I allowed other people’s thoughts and feelings to become imparted on me. My mentor at the time taught me to thank them, the thoughts, and release them to the ethers for they were no longer needed. I eventually got to a point in my meditations were I could hear clearly my OWN voice. This was the beginning of writing my story after I cleared the space. I was able to tap into my own heart space and feel love for myself. I saw my self and had so much compassion for her.

Releasing yourself from your head space and leaping into your heart space is the most beautiful, exhilarating and freeing step you can take on your self development journey.

What does living in your head space mean?

For me this meant living with the constant chatter of thoughts that were limiting, loathing, critical, denying, worrisome, insecure, projecting fear or judgement. I would constantly blame someone else for how I was feeling. This was learned from learned childhood conditioning and learned responses to challenges and adversities. Our habitual patterns of how we respond, interpret, react and perceive the world in relationship to our viewpoint of who we are.

Living in your head space allowed me determine my image by what others think of me; therefore it is constantly changing to adapt to other peoples’ opinions. I was completely blocking or overthinking myself away from my own Authenticity

Your Truth is Your Authentic Worth

when your sense of Self is made up of all the things others have told you in regards to who THEY think you are and who you are not, is very limiting and constraining as you try to mold yourself into an image that others will like. If it feels constraining or limiting then it’s not the truth of who you are because the truth is not limiting that’s why it sets you free.

What does living in your heart space mean?

An inner knowing. A knowing that cannot be explained, but felt. You feel light, free, expansive and alive. You don’t question why you are doing what you are doing, but you feel pulled to do it. Living from your heart space means listening to your feelings and understanding what they are telling you. It feels just right and aligned to who you are. It feels authentic.

Heart energy is always loving, supportive and empowering. When we live from our heart space we are self compassionate. True healing is in total acceptance of who we are. As acceptance becomes the foundation for our growth and self improvement, we no longer judge or condemn our Being. Instead, we begin to honor and celebrate it. What you celebrate you honor.

So ask yourself: How can I celebrate myself? How can I honor myself? In celebrating and honoring myself I live from my heart space.

Xo,

Tahiry

Birthing The Warrior and The Magi

We have all weak points, or areas in our lives that perceive to be weak. Since my inner initiation to the Mother, I have found passion and compassion to all the things that I have and have achieved; even to those things I felt I lost or have yet to achieve. I have a feeling of feeling complete. I live from my inspirations and desires; by just being me.

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I have been birthed into a Warrior where my past does not haunt me anymore. Those are my strengths thanks to the wealth of experience I acquired. My scars are my visual marks of strength and fortitude. I wear them proudly, and feel honored to have them. They remind me from whence I came and affirms to where I am going. I am the Best, my past does not define me, it affirms my growth.

This has also shown me that I am the Magi, or Magician. I have all the tools to create and recreate from the space of abundance. I see so much that I do have when  I look through the lens of gratitude. This has materialized so many opportunities to gain and acquire more. I feel unbound, breaker of chains of self-criticism and self-limitations. In relation to the Full Moon In Capricorn Lunar Eclipse, I cannot help but to see how this energy is a washing away of all the structures that I once held in life that no longer serves me and my growth; but also a nourishing for the newly birthed self.

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I am so thankful and grateful for this journey of life. I am continually unlocking the Mystery (My-Story) of myself. There is so much I can share about the past, however the future is right in front of me and completely known yet unknown. I look forward to more to come; for I am the Warrior and the Magi.

XO, 

Tahiry 

How I found myself in The Maiden, The Mother, & The Crone

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The Maiden, the Mother and, the Crone:

I was first introduced to this concept when I began my Goddess journey back in 2014. At that time it felt so revealing of me on my own journey as a woman and womanhood. This concept started to add pieces of what I believed was missing in my experience and ability to maneuver in life.

I wasn’t new to the idea archetypes but I was new to the notion of implementing archetypes in my life and thus seeing myself in one or all three. Awakening the Divine Feminine lead me into my own journey of self discovery and self realization. I immediately saw where I fit in the different archetypes and I fully intended in mastering myself in each one. I felt fluid between the maiden and the mother, it wasn’t until as of recently of last week that I really felt the embodiment of Mother archetype.

Just to give a brief introduction to these archetypes from my perspective:

Maiden is the phase of womanhood/femininity where she is realizing her creatrix/creative/sexual energy. This is the phase of apprenticeship; many mistakes and lessons during this phase. It is the tapping into the potency of attraction and manifestation.

Mother is the accountability of creative/sexual energy. She has mastered her ability and consciously creates, destroys, and rebuild. She activates within her own power and embodies the teacher and caregiver to her creations.

Crone is the most potent and powerful of all. She rests in her knowing and is the epitome of the right application of knowledge, i.e wisdom, that the Maiden and Mother can hope for and achieve with discipline and persistence. She is the Grand-Mother. She is the representation of gains and loss. In this phase she may lose a lot; but her gains for more greater than any loss. She is the bridge between the waking and dream world.

My Experience As Maiden and Mother

I can honestly say that I left my maidenhood just a few days short before last week. For me there was much difficulty in this phase in life because I felt like I did not have the proper guidance to be an apprentice. I maneuvered my maidenhood slightly foolishly, as anyone would given the circumstances. Fortunately, I was a little more wiser than my peers and I still made very good choices despite some haughty decisions.

During my maiden phase I became a mother, I honestly believed that I naturally fell into the archetype of Mother because I birthed children, nurtured and cared for them. I was married, in my career field, bought a house, and drove a nice car. I felt that was all I needed to be Mother. It was not until the last year and a half, while coming to the end of my Saturn Return that I came into the full realization of accountability in my life, present, past, and future. My maidenhood was a seesaw of depression, some deep-seated, and anxiety, sometimes so bad I would not sleep for days.

I was completely unsure of myself, my life path, and my relationships with work and family. It wasn’t until my encounter with the Goddess Kali that I fully understood or coming to understand what my life was like and where I was or wanted to be. I will share more on this encounter along with my Saturn Return at a later post. After Saturn left my sign, I thought now I had graduated to the next phase. I realized what I needed to see and now I have arrived. I found out soon that it did not work like that. Immediately I experienced what is called in the Tarot, a Tower moment in life. Just as I was becoming into more of what I thought I knew, literally everything fell apart. My marriage, my career, my finances they all were stricken by the Tower. At that point I was in complete reset mode.

Like I shared earlier, it wasn’t until last week that I felt the initiation of the shift the awakening of my cells into my mother archetype. I shared on my Youtube video  of the Cancer New Moon Solar Eclipse, how everything is happening for you. And in retrospect, not only do I see it, I feel it too. I have been a practitioner of the Tantric Arts for a little over three years now; coming into my fourth year, I feel stability and expansion in my own personal power. As aforementioned, the mother archetype has little to do with birthing physical children but has everything to do with honing and owning your creative power and being accountable with how you use it.

 

Knowing how to properly harness it express it and maneuver freely in it is what make you embody the archetype of the mother. Just a few weeks before the Cancer New Moon, my cycle was a little over six days late. I was confused to why this was and the several nights I kept having dreams pregnancy related dreams; one I was actually giving birth. Its funny how you can know better, but not actually know better. My dream was speaking straight up to me.

I decided to take a pregnancy test; prior to buying the pregnancy test my spirit was already telling me you’re with child but not with child. I could hear my Inner Voice speaking to me but I still was listening to my outer Voice to drive me to the pharmacy and buy several pregnancy tests, which all came back negative. The point I’m making is, I was pregnant but not in a physical sense, I was with a child and I was the child. I was the mother looking at the child (or new version) of me and nurturing her loving her affirming her and reminding her of her power.

I saw in what felt like a vision or premonition, I was telling this new me that everything that happens in her life was because she chose it and that she too can choose another life. At that moment I took responsibility for everything that took place in my life and soon to take place in my life. I accepted to be accountable of my own life.  I took ownership of my experiences of my knowledge and my wisdom. I felt responsible to myself and for I had to say, teach, or share.

and there was my graduation into my initiation.

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xo, 

Tahiry Devine

#GetOut with the New Moon in Leo & Partial Solar Eclipse

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It is time to #GetOut! Get out of Self Doubt, Self Sabotage, Self Loathing, Fear, and Stagnation. The cosmos is aligned for us to become who we truly are. Live life free from fear and all that holds us back! This eclipse season is all about shining light on our shadows so that we can fully encompass who we truly are!

However, in order to do that we have to know that Intention is EVERYTHING! This has been the Major Key Alert for 2018: intent and awareness. We can not make intentions if we are not aware of what we want and where we need to make change to embrace the new. However, if you have been aligning yourself with the last series of eclipses and retrogrades, you are more than aware of what you need to do; now its time to do it! #roar Lioness and Lions

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The Leo New Moon and the Eclipse is saying it is time to BE. No more thinking, no more excuses; give it your all or nothing at all. This is the change or evolving that you have been desiring! We are Living out loud from our Heart Chakra and Solar Plexus Chakra, and with a kiss from the Divine through our Third Eye Chakra. We are being activated to live in our Glow Up. But you have to Receive it

Celebrate yourself, your uniqueness, quirkiness, the splendor of who all you are. You are golden, baby. Do yourself a favor and stop hiding it.

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Tahiry

The Lions Gate Portal #888 Activation What does this mean?

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What is the Lions Gate Portal?

Every year of the eighth month and the 8th day which falls on August 8 is when the Earth, Sun, and Star Sirius are in cosmic alignment within the Leo zodiac. The Leo is associated to living from a heart centered courage and represent us shining like the Sun in our individual expression of the Divine.  To name it plainly, light travels and carries information, and the light from the Sirius in conjunction with the light of the Sun is being aligned to Earth. This alignment is said to create an increase the inhabitants of the Earth’s awareness of the spiritual aspect of our earthly existence. Think of it like the “veil” between the two worlds is thin, creating more energy awareness and life changing events so that we can take hold of our lives and opportunities that invite the change that we seek.

Within the last few months with the many planets that went retrograde and the eclipses, we have all on some level felt a shift in how we think, feel, and want to act or behave. This for many, has brought up much anxiety and uncertainty as in what steps to take and for others there has been clarity and newfound confidence. No matter where you may fall within this spectrum, change is definitely a factor for all of us. So what makes this particular cosmic event different? From my inner-standing, this cosmic event of aligning the spiritual world with the physical world creates access for us to not just connect with God/Universe, Higher self, our angels, or even ancestors, but also opens us up to be more receiving to the divine messages or downloads they are giving us. I am a firm believer that the divine is always making attempts to send signs or messages, however, we are often distracted by the fast-pace movement of our current society which can create barriers from the spiritual.

This spiritual gateway is reminding us to slow down and listen with our heart and inner ear to our divine consciousness for the direction that we are to go. There is an acceleration of time and an influx of information that is competing for our attention, much of it for our benefit; but with this information overload we can get bogged down, or worst yet analysis paralysis.

The Lions Gate portal power is a symbol of everything divine: energy, courage, femininity, masculinity, bravery, dichotomizing everything, yet bringing it too within its folds. This would allow us to believe that things are changing, and we need to be aware that things aren’t going to be the same for us anymore. Life is constantly changing.

This is where the number 8 is profound as it is the sign on infinity and stability. The influence of the number 8 signifies a time when we are more aware of the infinite possibilities and opportunities that are before us once we open ourselves to receive it. The number 8 also represents how we take control of the situations before us and realize that we need to work on everything that we have been missing out on. Importantly releasing and moving away from all that does not serve us in our lives anymore. This could range from relationships, friendships, jobs, locations, thought patterns, habits, etc. The Lions Gate is about honoring your past because it made you or assisted in defining who you are today so that you can become the person you desire to be.

What areas in your life are feeling the need to change or evolve? How has your past helped shape you into the person you are and who you desire to become? Please share below in the comments! Until next time!

XO, Tahiry

 

 

 

Are you seeing 11:11 or Repeating Numbers? What do they mean?

Have you been seeing repeating numbers such as: 111, 1111, 222, 333, or any repeating sequence of numbers? What do they mean? If you are seeing any of these numbers or set of sequence numbers it is a message from your angels, ancestors, or Higher-Self/God trying to make you aware of something.

Before there were letters or writing, numbers was the and is the first language or form of communication. Numbers are universal and will always be what they ae despite of culture, religion, or dimensions. Every number has an energetic vibrational/spiritual meaning, beginning with 0 to infinite.

The number 1 is a very important number, it represents new beginnings, individuality, uniqueness, manifestation and leadership. When we find 11, the first of the Master Numbers, it is considered as a symbol of inspiration, intuition, and connection with the higher aspect of yourself.

I began noticing sequent numbers back in 2014. I was going through the beginning of my spiritual awakening and a shift in my personal life. I first started seeing 111 and 1111; usually 1:11, 10:11 and 11:11. This would typically show up when I was either looking for an answer or confirmation on a decision or prayer I had.

I have learned on my path that when we see 11, 111, or 1111 we are asked by the Divine to check or pay attention to our thoughts and attitudes in revealing answers to our prayers. We are also being prompted to focus on our manifestations and not our fears.  Remember to trust your intuition as your are being divinely guided. Most importantly keep your thoughts positive and to avoid jealousy as it can damper your spirit and steer you away from your path in life.

If you are in a weak state or unsure as to what to do, call on the Divine, it will support you. 111 is telling you that you are supported and loved. Be mindful of your actions, you may be prompted to take action or start something new or of great importance for your life.

If see this number or any number sequence once or several times, it means you should take special attention to it and try to interpret the message that is being sent to you.

 

 

Root Chakra Healing Affirmation